8/15
So my week without meat went pretty well! I did eat lobster twice but no beef, pork, chicken, etc. The following week I added poultry and fish back to the equation and that went well too! This past Sunday I weighed myself and I am happy to announce I'm down 3lbs from last weigh-in and I am officially in the 240's (248 to be exact!)!! Food is still my biggest obstacle though. I use an app to help me count calories and that has really helped a lot but there are some days where if I wanna eat a pizza, I'm gonna eat that whole pizza!!
8/26
I haven't been to the gym or done any sort of exercise in almost 2 weeks. I haven't made any real effort to eat healthy and I haven't counted a single calorie! I'm not happy with the way I look but after two and a half months of working hard with minimal results, I think I've given up. Maybe I'm just meant to be fat? Or am I?? I think back to times where I wasn't and it makes me sad because I honestly don't know how to get back to that. Then today rolls around...
I spent the night at my mom's last night and woke up wondering how much I've gained back. I mean, I had only lost a measly 5# since June 1st anyway. I hopped on the scale and closed my eyes real tight...I'm nervous! I don't really want to know (if I don't acknowledge it, it's not a problem, right??) Fuck it! I need to know!! I opened my eyes and the scale read: 243.6... This can't be right! I hopped off, waited 5 minutes and tried again: 243.4. I still don't believe this! Something is wrong with the scale, right??!! An hour later, One. Last. Time...243.6.
I don't know how I did it but somehow I lost 5 more pounds!! This may sound crazy but, I think my body wants to be smaller and I just have to try harder to figure out what it needs to make that happen. My granny made a roast today though, so that'll have to wait until tomorrow! LOL!!
So my week without meat went pretty well! I did eat lobster twice but no beef, pork, chicken, etc. The following week I added poultry and fish back to the equation and that went well too! This past Sunday I weighed myself and I am happy to announce I'm down 3lbs from last weigh-in and I am officially in the 240's (248 to be exact!)!! Food is still my biggest obstacle though. I use an app to help me count calories and that has really helped a lot but there are some days where if I wanna eat a pizza, I'm gonna eat that whole pizza!!
8/26
I haven't been to the gym or done any sort of exercise in almost 2 weeks. I haven't made any real effort to eat healthy and I haven't counted a single calorie! I'm not happy with the way I look but after two and a half months of working hard with minimal results, I think I've given up. Maybe I'm just meant to be fat? Or am I?? I think back to times where I wasn't and it makes me sad because I honestly don't know how to get back to that. Then today rolls around...
I spent the night at my mom's last night and woke up wondering how much I've gained back. I mean, I had only lost a measly 5# since June 1st anyway. I hopped on the scale and closed my eyes real tight...I'm nervous! I don't really want to know (if I don't acknowledge it, it's not a problem, right??) Fuck it! I need to know!! I opened my eyes and the scale read: 243.6... This can't be right! I hopped off, waited 5 minutes and tried again: 243.4. I still don't believe this! Something is wrong with the scale, right??!! An hour later, One. Last. Time...243.6.
I don't know how I did it but somehow I lost 5 more pounds!! This may sound crazy but, I think my body wants to be smaller and I just have to try harder to figure out what it needs to make that happen. My granny made a roast today though, so that'll have to wait until tomorrow! LOL!!
